over the past few years i have been asked
to teach various work-shoppy types of things,
and i have ALWAYs declined.
i don't think of myself as a teacher (although
i do think i may have many things i could share). i am blunt.
i am not the most eloquent speaker... i sometimes
have a hard time getting to the point, and
when i do i often surprise myself with a
truth i didn't even know i held!
but here is the story... i was recently asked to be
part of a workshop (details to come), and i totally ignored
the email, because i was so freaked out by it.
what would i have to say about that? i might sound
dumb? what on earth would i say.... basically i totally
shut down and panicked, YET i was still
considering it. you know... so i could "grow".
so i am putting my son to bed one night, and i say
to him, "i have to get up now so i can see if i am really
going to be able to teach this class. i have research to do...
and i need to tell the nice lady by tomorrow,
if i am in or not."
"what is it exactly?" Henry asks... so i tell him (again details to follow),
and my smart little guy says, "MOM! that sounds like
a fifth grade report." and i thought... you, my clever fellow,
are entirely correct! so i marched to the phone
and called and accepted the challenge.
and now for the past 6 weeks i have been trying to enjoy
summer while freaking out about what i said yes too.
(my arms actually hurt when i think about it!)
i keep running into quotes, and words of wisdom
about personal growth and saying yes to things
that scare you. basically, things that you
resist and fear should be tackled
as personal growth opportunities.
well i hope that's right,
because i said YES!
wish me luck- and maybe i'll see you there?
*details to follow!